There is a difference.
Do you know that feeling when you realized that you can never be good enough for someone? I felt devastated when I came to think about it. It's like everything you did was pointless no matter how hard you tried, you always came back to being let down, again. I tried to be optimistic, but these negatives vibes are building up a thick wall inside. How to get rid of this feeling?
It is actually a good thing to remind yourself of who you want to be. There's a saying, "Be the type of person you want to meet". Can't you see it? I'll leave that for you think. The rules of life are very simple. Basically it is karma, and maybe karma is hitting on me since the very beginning but I was too blind to realize. If today wasn't a good day, there is still light at the end of everything. Everyone has their own principles slash philosophy, the way they view life differs from one another. Different people means different perspective. And for me, I strongly believe that; what came out from your mouth, proceeds from the heart. Kalau solat 5 waktu satu hari, but still your are defiled by the words you say, dayyum. I don't know where you did wrong. I am not a saint nor pious. I make mistakes everyday, but life is too short to wake up with regrets.
I hate finding faults, cause it is clearly stated that to be happy and find inner peace is you have to let go of all the grudges you've been holding inside. I think it's eating me back slowly. I have always been quiet and this emo blog of mine is the only place where I can say anything I want, and if I get judgments from what I said, then I am truly sorry for you. Have you tried expressing yourself? And when you do, please do tell me how it feels like. It feels like you've just lifted one hundred kilos of weight from your shoulders. No one likes extra complications.
Egoism or in a simpler term; selfishness, it runs in the blood. Though it depends solely on individuals but I think if you've been raised with a surrounding like that, eventually you'll get used to living on your own, not caring about others. I am not a little kid anymore, I understand sarcasm and the message behind it. Growing up to different surroundings from time to time opens up my mind, I have my own point of view about everything. And to force someone like me to do something that I know I won't pour my heart doing it, is unfair. Lopsided. Do you think it's reasonable to do that? Anyhow, being pessimistic isn't going to make things better. Life as you know it, a vicious cycle. It's inevitable.
I hate finding faults, cause it is clearly stated that to be happy and find inner peace is you have to let go of all the grudges you've been holding inside. I think it's eating me back slowly. I have always been quiet and this emo blog of mine is the only place where I can say anything I want, and if I get judgments from what I said, then I am truly sorry for you. Have you tried expressing yourself? And when you do, please do tell me how it feels like. It feels like you've just lifted one hundred kilos of weight from your shoulders. No one likes extra complications.
Egoism or in a simpler term; selfishness, it runs in the blood. Though it depends solely on individuals but I think if you've been raised with a surrounding like that, eventually you'll get used to living on your own, not caring about others. I am not a little kid anymore, I understand sarcasm and the message behind it. Growing up to different surroundings from time to time opens up my mind, I have my own point of view about everything. And to force someone like me to do something that I know I won't pour my heart doing it, is unfair. Lopsided. Do you think it's reasonable to do that? Anyhow, being pessimistic isn't going to make things better. Life as you know it, a vicious cycle. It's inevitable.
