The most terrifying thing that has ever happened to me is falling in love. I’ve heard all the songs, seen all the movies, and read all the books that proclaim love to be the most cherished; emotion, idea, object in the universe. In these poor representations of love you get to see it all, including the minor heartbreak that is eventually resolved…or not. I don’t believe people will ever understand how vulnerable love makes you feel until you are truly in love. You go into a relationship knowing full and well that at any moment this person who you are bat-shit crazy about can destroy your life, change who you are, and kill your belief in happiness. Dramatic, right? No.This feeling of utter euphoria always has the dull lead lining of the possibility of complete heartbreak. If you don’t see this as a possibility, well hell, maybe you aren’t a terrible cynic like me. But whether you can anticipate it or not… nothing will ever prepare you for how broken you will feel. Knowing the person you love and wanted to spend your life with is going to part ways from you and you can’t change it. Thinking about this all scares the shit out of me. It’s why I’ve never truly loved. It is also why now, while I am in love, cannot allow myself to fully let myself be all in it. Love is too terrifying. It is more frightening than anything I have ever experienced. I have yet to experience true heartbreak and if I never do, I will consider myself richer than any man or woman. I am in love and I am terrified.
Re-blogged from somewhere. And I have to agree with it. Love is actually painful if you mishandle it.
