Hey, I have to say this but don't judge me cause really, I hate being an officious person. This is my observation, I do feel sometimes you punish yourself because of the past which I have zero idea what's in your mind, maybe I added you cause god wants me to be the middle person to pass you this message, I don't know, haha. And sometimes I feel like you are holding something heavy on your chest, no matter what Mawar, good things will come slowly, god is fair/almighty..with your love life, I can't say anything. So as for babies they have to crawl before eventually they start walking, so are we..which in life we have to solve problems, and we live to solve problems, the coward will run.. and look at yourself, a teacher and that's nobility, in fact if the kids understands what you are teaching/telling, it's a bonus to you and those little rascals and Islam already mentioned 'ilmu yang ditinggalkan'.. so be proud and which I'm not saying you are not, this is just a saying from me, I'm no one, a stranger that wants to help.
I was speechless when I read this, I count it as an act of care though it is from someone I barely know. In fact, it opened my eyes. I haven't been enjoying myself since I started working. I did have fun but it doesn't last long. Sometimes I ask myself, am I teaching the kids for the love of the profession or for the sake of filling my pocket? I don't know. I wanna start fresh tomorrow, be more lively and start sorting out what my priorities are (I should have done that ages ago).
