I am on my bed, staring at the empty wall on the other side of the room every now and then. Wondering what to write this time. Promised that I'd write something worth reading to myself. Sigh. My mind is empty, and I paused for every single word I typed. Then I wonder how peculiar can life be, so full off odd moments and it's nothing like a white canvas.
Sometimes, it is better to just isolate from everything else, leave everything behind and just let your own shadow be your companion, but as it gets darker, even your shadow leaves you. What do you do? So the option is to depend on yourself. As much as I hate depending on others, that's how much I long to lean on someone's shoulder and let myself drown in the comfort of feeling safe and secure. Nothing can beat that. Good companion. Everyone needs someone special in their life, it's a matter of finding the right one or getting your heart crushed. Whatever it is, the journey of love always gets us tangled in situations that we can't foretell.
I find that choosing the right clique can be a life savior, it is very important because it moulds you into who you are as a person. You keep on wondering how to get a better life but look at you, smoking pot all day long, get high in the smokes, wandering around floating in the world of fantasy. You keep on wondering how to be better in life but all you did was drinking all night long, getting hammered every single night. Waking up with a bad hangover. You keep on wondering how to be a better person, but who do you surround yourself with?
These kinds of statements made me wonder. Time for a reality check. Who do I surround myself with?
These kinds of statements made me wonder. Time for a reality check. Who do I surround myself with?
