Nieces, Nayli and Israa. Mind the pose.
I haven't been posting much about what's new with my life. In fact I've never felt like writing about it. But somehow today I felt like doing so. I mean, someone out there must be waiting for "this". Pathetic laughs. This would be a typical blogger post. It's 19 minutes past 1 now, my eyes are begging for mercy. I probably should prepare myself for the 8-short-hours of journey to the world of fantasy. But I have promised myself to finish this post because I left it halfway, for a dinner with friends.
I was happy for a moment. But then I started to question myself. Why is it so hard for me to adapt with new surroundings? Why is it so hard for me to fit in? Why does it even matter to fit in the crowd? Those are some of the questions I kept on asking to myself, but I am hopeless. Alone I wonder. Have you ever felt like you don't belong anywhere? I am still the same old me, very bad at keeping in touch. Maybe I should just admit that I have poor communication skills and that means I have to re-do my resume. How ironic. Resumes are bullshit. However, that is not the point. Totally off the topic.
Life is actually pretty good for me now. There is no need to feel morose, it is completely unnecessary because everything happens for a reason. I am still in the journey of finding myself, I believe that the path I'm taking now is leading me to the greater things in life. Open your eyes and see the beauty in life, pay attention to the small details in life, and you'll feel blessed. I have always wondered why is everything so stale and boring. Then I realized that I've been doing the same damn routine for the past few months. Change is good, it reminds me of a reincarnation somehow. Like I told you before, change is bound to happen. You'll never realize that things around you are changing but then when you look back, everything is different. Isn't it?
I was happy for a moment. But then I started to question myself. Why is it so hard for me to adapt with new surroundings? Why is it so hard for me to fit in? Why does it even matter to fit in the crowd? Those are some of the questions I kept on asking to myself, but I am hopeless. Alone I wonder. Have you ever felt like you don't belong anywhere? I am still the same old me, very bad at keeping in touch. Maybe I should just admit that I have poor communication skills and that means I have to re-do my resume. How ironic. Resumes are bullshit. However, that is not the point. Totally off the topic.
Life is actually pretty good for me now. There is no need to feel morose, it is completely unnecessary because everything happens for a reason. I am still in the journey of finding myself, I believe that the path I'm taking now is leading me to the greater things in life. Open your eyes and see the beauty in life, pay attention to the small details in life, and you'll feel blessed. I have always wondered why is everything so stale and boring. Then I realized that I've been doing the same damn routine for the past few months. Change is good, it reminds me of a reincarnation somehow. Like I told you before, change is bound to happen. You'll never realize that things around you are changing but then when you look back, everything is different. Isn't it?
Be kind to yourself. Stop telling yourself
that whatever you are struggling with “should” be easy. If something is
hard for you, it is hard for you. There are probably Reasons, though
those may just be how you are wired. Acknowledge these things. When you
finish something hard, be proud! Celebrate a little. And really, just
stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any
context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things
in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of
will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who
and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward.
