Going back to college in 3 days and I am not excited at all. It's gonna be bloody hot over there. My skin is going to get burned. I need to buy a sunblock with SPF 3000++ To make it worse, I have a bloody medical check up every week because my weight is dropping. I weigh 38 kilograms right now. The doctor suspected that I have an eating disorder and I am quite upset because I don't want anybody to say that I'm an anorexic bitch. Blame this fever, its taking away all my appetite. Sigh. My love for food is now gone. And I don't even feel like drinking water. I just don't know what to do. I do know what to do but I can't do it. I just can't. I can feel my bones sticking out. And sometimes I have trouble breathing. It hurts so much.
Stressful, and I really don't wannna go back to college because there are a bunch of judgmental cunts over there. I hate typical Malaysians. I hate college. I hate everything. But I love my life and I love those who never fail to make me happy. But somehow, I am dissapointed with myself. SIGH. Somebody please, tell me that I am worth having. I feel pathetic.
