Deal With Your Disappointment

 

You can look at hate as an infinite escalator. An infinitely disturbed state of mind.
An escalator where no matter how you stand on it, will lead you to a devastating destination.

Hate often grows from irritation that originates from disappointment or fear. The disappointment with perhaps a lousy football referee, an unfair teacher or perhaps even the disappointment with oneself.

What you decide to do with your disappointment is what decides whether you’re good or evil. I believe that every human being has goodness inside them, some seemingly obvious whilst others have forgotten about it. But it’s there, and one must know how to return to this source of goodness.

Do not develop your disappointment to anger or hatred. Instead, try to go back to a source of inspiration, a picture from last years vacation, a book or a memory. Whatever it is that does so that you want to inspire others to inspire, is what every person should strive for. A global, positive inspirational virus is probably the only thing that can stop humanity from total devastation.

Learn how to deal with your disappointment, to learn how to love. Learn to inspire, so that others will inspire. For only in this way, will we one day perhaps live in pure harmony.

- Zdravko Stefanovic

To Forgive Someone Is Never Easy

You'll realize that being strong is the only choice you got.

I am out of words to say. But somehow, I need to let go of this feeling that I have been keeping for a long time. I don't know what I am gonna write, constantly pressing the "backspace" button. And still having no idea what to write about. Look at me now, blank expression - painted across my features. Sudden sorrows. Sad but I can't acknowledged what had caused this horrid feeling. Or wait, there is no need for a drama. Maybe it is PMS. Cliche.

Why can't I just write a normal post? You know, one of those posts where you'd write about random stuff such as "I bought new shoes" or "Oh Lord, I miss my boyfriend" etcetera. Haha. The main reason I exposed myself to writing is because I want to continuously remind myself on how good or how bad I am at expressing myself. I want to come back here, reading this and maybe tell myself in the future whether I have improved or have gotten from worse to worst. My mum has always encouraged me to be a writer so that when I grow a bit older, I can really make use of my spare time. I'd love to make that happen. Thank you for encouraging. Just do anything, and let it produce joy.

"Love the earth and sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to every one that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people, take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men, go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families, read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life, re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss whatever insults your own soul, and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body.” 

Walt Whitman.

Happy New Year

It's the 12th today. I've been joining dots since the year started and God, how I wish life would be as easy as joining up the dots and making lines. I am absolutely happy. It was such a wonderful feeling to end last year and begin a new one with loved ones. Things could have been better but my New Year's Eve was pretty amazing. I didn't kiss anyone when the clock strikes 12, I didn't even notice the fireworks! I missed it but all of that, it doesn't matter because at the end of the day, everything went smoothly. I am very thankful to those who made my 2012 meaningful.

There is no point making new resolutions, I can't even keep up with last year's. I am gonna make the best of the present and just do whatever I want, spontaneously. It makes me happier that way, I never really like planning things anyway. Well you see, the future is just a concept. You plan things but you can't really guarantee it will happen. It is just the way how you want things to be. There is no such thing as tomorrow. If it does exist, it will be called today or even yesterday. Time is always NOW, the present. That is one thing that we discover when we stop talking to ourselves and maybe stop thinking and wondering for a while. We'll find that there is only the present, an eternal now. For one moment, maybe we should just stop over thinking and cherish this little moment that we have now. Dance with the flow and just grab whatever that comes along the way. Stop worrying about what is going to happen because tomorrow is not here yet. And if you are worrying right now, why don't you create a better concept of how you want things to run. And stop whining, instead, make things happen.

I've been doing a lot of reading, inspirations are everywhere. Walt Whitman, Alan Watts, Lao Tzu and so on. I just want to be happy and I want the people around me to be happy as well. How you treat other people is a reflection of how you treat yourself, I've been holding on to that. And that is one thing that I will never regret. Well of course I hurt people a lot too and you have to know that holding grudges will not get you anywhere, why don't you just move on? Life is short. Really.